I failed

Today I went for my driver's license test, and unsurprisingly I failed but  I was confident that I will fail. I have never in my life looked forward to getting bad news but it happens in life that you don't feel positive, at peace or confident about doing something. I am okay with it though, I am actually very relieved that on my first attempt I failed and that I am okay with it. Failing is something i never take lightly, i remember my shock when i failed my assignment, imagine failing an assignment, i worked hard on that assignment, and how I failed it, its a long story, but i was so embarrassed that i failed and that i failed that assignment. I cried like I lost a piece of my heart. I tried hiding from my roommate that i failed but i eventually told her and i felt so free afterwards. A lesson learnt is that failing is not something to bring embarrassment  but when you are honest about your failure and acknowledge what you can and cannot do, that will prevent you from getting mad about your weaknesses. When failure is acknowledged quick it allows for acceptance, closure and moving on. Wasting time dwelling on the pain of failure will only delay a person to learn better and move on.

I remember the time that I was teaching myself how to ride a bike, i kept falling, however that didn't deter me from trying again. Sometimes failure is there to build courage and to grow in us a spirit of persistence. Not so long ago, I started learning how to play the piano, I have never felt so slow and not so smart, yoo, maybe its cause i don't have anyone to teach and guide me and in this case failing doesn't make you persistent, it just makes one frustrated. I have never been able to pursue some of my dreams because of being afraid to fail. I always shy away from being the first person to ask for friendship or the first to ask for a favour or the first to try something new. A huge lesson learnt today is that I should not be afraid to fail or fail to tell people about my failures just because I am afraid of feeling worse or embarrassed about not succeeding at something. Failures are meant to teach us and help us to grow and to make us a bit wiser and informed. We can see our failures to be for our own good and when we acknowledge them, we move on as better people, wiser and enlightened.