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She also experienced some unfortunate rejection from people she desired to be friends with.

This shattered her because she already felt rejected by her father.

The people she liked, liked others other than her.

After a while, these rejections were massive enough to break her down.

She was left hopeless with no desire to be friends with anyone, or to be anything significant to anyone who had the potential to make her feel valuable and needed.

She became very shy and withdrawn, a lonesome empty girl. Always afraid to be free, let loose and be happy. She hid behind dressing in characters to confuse the bystander not to know exactly what type of person she was.

She kept everything to herself, even when she really wanted to be real and talk to someone, she felt she would be misunderstood then judged.

Actually she felt judged, she judged herself before anyone did.
As a result she had few meaningful relationships, which had minimal focus on her. 
She was always worried of being judged & criticised.

So she became guarded.
To her always being alone seemed more manageable and peaceful.

From shutting people out, she missed the importance of having relationships.

She shared her burdens with no one, though she tried to constantly pray and cry her worries out.

To people she looked like a perfect example of a great life.
She always put on a facade to look put together, but some could see that it wasn’t real, wasn’t natural and wasn’t genuine, but would never enquire. 

She knew very well that this will get her no where far.

And each time she watched movies she saw how valuable and much needed relationships were.

She devised a coping mechanism that echoes: just love and live with people from a distance.

But that doesn’t provide the same, not even close to how real relationships should be.

This ate her up, but she pretended like she didn't care.

She looks at happy friendships and it swells her heart with happiness,

But also with jealousy and more with fear that she will never have those kind of friendships herself.

It’s something good to have but she can’t get it cause she has made herself feel and look different from others.

She tried and succeeded in brainwashing herself to believe that good relationships of any kind, are not meant for her, they are not hers to have and enjoy, that she is not suited for them and so it is happening, they are scurrying from her.