Maybe I am not passionate enough, maybe I don’t have enough drive, maybe my vision is not aggressive enough, maybe I dream very little, maybe my goals are not that radical or maybe my desires are just too redirected for now and maybe after this one part of my life, (unconditional adoration) is satisfied, it will open me up to need other things, but I don't need greed. I don’t understand why people are seeking absolute power; I don’t understand why we wage soo much war against one another, be it for power, for political correctness, for attention, for beauty or whatever other trivial things I see it being waged for.
I have no understanding of this world I find myself in and it makes it difficult for me to live like I am really living. For now, asking these questions is necessary for me to try and understand this in-need society I am growing up in. They are necessary for me to understand why we need all these luxuries to feel fulfilled and accomplished in life.
I just want to understand why not driving the most expensive car, living in a house of unnecessary amount of rooms or looking the most expensive dressed person in a crowd is not enough to show that one is living. I honestly just want to understand why having MORE than ENOUGH is necessary for our society. I asked some people some time ago that; if I have enough amount of money to satisfy all my basic and unnecessary demands of my monthly expenses, and have enough to help my children, relatives and not only for one generation but many after me to come, with my material wealth, why would I still have the greed to acquire some more? I was answered and I am still amazed by the unending need for wealth we all have.
If a person has a need to have a standard home with a sink and flushing toilet and drives a car that has four wheels and can move and has DSTV, while breathing and are healthy and comfortable, that’s fine, we all need comfortable lives, not the lives we struggle to always want to change a situation or always be faced with the struggles of poverty and constant need. But what I don’t understand is the need to have more rooms than what your family and visiting people would need and have more cars than the days of the week. I know, if you can, why not, but still why?
I am not saying people should not want to work HARDER, but what REALLY drives that?
Is that all there is to life really; where I went to school, if I have a higher education qualification, where I studied and what I studied there? Is what I am now and what position I hold or where I work to fund my standard of living or the lack of it thereof of that importance in this life. Is it all there is to living; competing with my mates, trying to get ahead in life better than my colleagues and relatives? Is it all there is to life; who I know and who does he or she know and who they know? Is it all there is to life though; to try to always accomplish something, win, come out on top, and succeed further, while neglecting others in the way? Is that all there is to life to be the one the one. Are all these things worth pursuing really and when will the cycle end?
When will it be about the great sensation that comes with living happily with what one has, especially when it's enough, while wholeheartedly helping others on the way than the competition or the desperation of always getting ahead alone? What drives this hunger to want to seem smarter, more attractive, wealthier, more musically talented, the one with better punch lines, what drives this need to be more accomplished than others, especially ones relatives. Is it all there is to live for?
All this self-centeredness drives “the divided we fall” situations we always find ourselves in. Instead of always wanting to be seen as a better party to deliver better services to communities, or the ONE to be voted into power for whatever reason, why shouldnt it be about uniting to do it better together than it being like a competition. Mara what about us the people who expect our government to carry us through and really help, than persistently confirming to us that its not really listening as our lives are evidence of lack. Things are not really changing and holes will keep on popping on the bucket of government trust that we have put our hope in. Why doesn’t other people’s need and poverty move us more than our self-enrichment?
When will it be about love, totally about love, unconditional love? When will it be about being constantly concerned about those homeless people we see year in year out? Our temporary relieve of giving blankets sometimes is not enough, I know it’s not only in South Africa that they are there but, this country is what faces us, or what we face every day, and I also know it doesn’t happen over a year to eradicate poverty and improve the lives of those homeless people, but I see nothing is happening, that is why the numbers are constantly increasing and situations worsening.
When will it be about true and lasting friendships, the joys and the contentment of seeing others getting ahead of us even when we don’t have anything to do with it or didn’t contribute to their success, cause at times we get more excited and feel better if a person acknowledges us as the one who helped them succeed, other than that we get jealous. When will it be about love and being totally happy for other people than wanting to be better or become more successful than them? When will it be about true unconditional love, not only the one you show your spouse, family, relative, friends or people who are just in your social circle? When will it be about it being normal to just greet a stranger that you get the same tea with at your workplace kitchen? When will it be about just love? I love love and I love being adored and feeling like I belong, but my society constantly isolates me.
I don’t have solutions either I just have a bag full of questions and that persistent desire to want to help even if my help is not enough for all. I want to make a difference but all I have now is a need to help and I will do it by showing love. I have a wish to see our ill society being healed, like that guy's lyrics from “Hidden force: I also want God to give me a special hand that heals and change uMzansi ngale sandla so ku thobi intliziyo”.
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